I SHALL NOT RUN

I shall not run

I shall not chase

I shall stop running the futile race that I so desperately wanted to win

I shall stop, I shall pause

Inhale and be free and just be me

Without expectations, anxiety and prison of anticipation to enchain me

It’s time to be just me.

Beyond the hurt, the pain

Where I can befriend myself again

Get acquainted with the person that got lost somewhere

When I was busy finding myself in someone else

Million little pieces of my soul

Scattered all-around

Beckoning me towards them, calling to pick them again

I shall heal my soul and mend it

Pick up the million pieces and sew them with love

A patch work you say?

Yes, but it’s my very own patchwork, the labour of my love

A soul wanting to get healed

Don’t call me for I’m not yours to be called

Don’t stop me for I’ll not stop

Don’t come with me, for I want my being

To be free from you

I am my own friend, my own lover

I want to breathe and come out of the cover

That has wrapped me for a thousand years

Let roses bloom into my heart which has only seen a cactus so far

 Be drenched in the first shower of rains and wipe the desert away

I shall not run, I shall pause and take my time.